Imposter Syndrome : Anxiety and Doubt About New Roles

What is imposter syndrome?

Have you ever taken on a new role that felt beyond your skill set? Maybe it was a new role in your family (stepping into parenthood or becoming a caretaker for an elderly parent) or a new role at work (getting a promotion, changing jobs, starting your own business). If you felt like you weren’t good enough to fulfill this new role you were given, you experienced imposter syndrome. Imposter syndrome is when we doubt our skills and abilities and feel undeserving of the roles we have. We fear that others will find out how inadequate we are and we often can feel lots of anxiety as a result.

Who struggles with imposter syndrome?

Not everybody struggles with imposter syndrome, but I’ll tell you a little secret about those who do… those people are the ones doing risky things. They’re trying things that feel a little scary and they’re putting themselves out there for potential rejection or failure. They’re taking a step out of their comfort zone and into their growth zone. They’re choosing to not be stagnant because they know there’s a lot to learn and they want to learn so they can be better.

What does it mean if I struggle with imposter syndrome?

You are taking a risk

If you struggle with imposter syndrome, I’d like to take a second to congratulate you for doing something that feels scary. You don’t feel like a fraud when you’re doing something you’re good at or something you’ve done a million times before. You feel like a fraud when you’re doing something new and difficult. So good on you for stepping up to the plate and trying something new and difficult.

You are learning

You feel like a fraud because you know you don’t know everything. But neither does anybody else! It’s easy to feel inadequate when you think about all the growth/learning that lies ahead, but don’t forget about the growth/learning that you’ve already been through to get where you are today!

You are comparing

It’s easy to feel inadequate when you compare yourself to people who have experience in the role you’re in. Of course you’re going to feel like you’re terrible at your new job when you compare your work to the work of your coworker who’s been doing the job for three decades. You can’t compare apples to oranges.

What can I do to combat imposter syndrome?

Acknowledge your strength

Congratulate yourself for stepping up to the challenge and doing something hard. Remind yourself of the strength it takes to step out of your comfort zone. Make a list of all the other strengths you have that equip you for your role. Give yourself credit for the things you’re good at. Acknowledge all the learning you’ve done to get you where you are today (school, reading, classes, inner work, etc.).

Compare yourself fairly

If you are going to compare yourself, compare yourself fairly. Compare yourself to the community at large. I bet if you’re a new mother, you know a lot more about motherhood than I do because I’ve never had a child. I bet if you’re a lawyer, you know a lot more about law than I’ll ever know because I’ve never been to law school. Even if you feel like you’re the worst at whatever you’re doing, remember that you probably have a lot more skills and experience to handle what you’ve got in front of you than the average person. There is a reason you’re in the position you’re in and you can’t forget that!

Talk it out

If you talk to other people who have been where you’re at today, they almost certainly felt the same way you do right now. Imposter syndrome is super normal and most people feel it at some point when they’re trying new things that are hard. Voice your doubt and insecurity to friends, family members, or mentors you can trust. They’ll most likely tell you they felt the same way you did when they were starting out. It’s normal. Nobody expects you to be perfect or to know everything when you’re starting out, so stop expecting that of yourself. Give yourself some grace.

Imposter syndrome can be extra difficult for people struggling with anxiety or those who have tendencies towards perfectionism. If you need extra help dealing with any of these things, schedule a counseling appointment today. 

How To Online Date Successfully | 9 Tips For Better Dating Experiences

If you’ve ever tried online dating, you probably know that it can make you feel like you’re on an emotional rollercoaster. One minute you’re feeling great because you just got a sweet message from a new match and the next you’re feeling like shit because you realize you’ve definitely been ghosted by the person you went out with a few days ago. Online dating doesn’t have to be so emotional, though. It can be a really enjoyable experience that can help you get your needs/wants/desires met without making you crazy. All you need to do is approach it with an open mind and…

Get clear about what you want from online dating

There are lots of reasons why people turn to online dating. Some people online date with the intentions of finding someone to marry. Some people online date as a way to find friendly people to do fun activities with. Some people online date to find someone to fulfill physical or emotional desires. Some people are looking for a lifelong partner while others are just looking for a tennis partner. All of these reasons for online dating are wonderful and valid, but in order to be successful in finding what you want, you must get clear about what you want.

Be clear about what you want from online dating

Once you know what you want from online dating, be clear about it! If you’re just looking for someone to play tennis with, it’s perfectly okay to put in your profile “just looking for a tennis partner!” Stating what you want is always the easiest way to get what you want. Being unclear will only create more work for you because you’ll have to weed through a bunch of people that don’t even like tennis. If you state what you want and someone isn’t into it, then that person probably isn’t for you.

Don’t take things personally

It’s kind of a bummer when people don’t like tennis or don’t want to play tennis with me, but I don’t take it personally. I remind myself that they’ve probably had a bad experience with the game or they don’t feel like they’re good enough to play the game with me. I also remember that sometimes I don’t like playing tennis with certain people because they don’t feel like a very good match for me. It doesn’t mean I don’t like them, it just means I don’t want to play tennis with them. Not every person you meet up with will be able to fulfill your needs or desires. And that’s okay. It doesn’t necessarily mean they don’t like you. It may just mean that they don’t like you enough to want to spend every day for the rest of their life with you.

Have realistic expectations

If you’re looking for a tennis partner, know that not everybody who plays tennis will be a good match for you. If you’re looking for a lifelong partner, know that even less people would be a good match for you. Online dating is a process and it takes time. You must have patience.

Don’t put so much pressure on the date

Even if you’re looking for a lifelong partner, a first date is supposed to be casual! All you’re doing is getting to know another person. No reason to be nervous or stressed. If you get along, great! If not, move along. This isn’t some kind of performance or competition; it’s a human interaction.

Check in with yourself

Are you enjoying the conversation or the interaction? People are often worried about how the other person is experiencing them, but your experience matters too! If you aren’t having a wonderful time, it’s okay to leave the date early or decline another hangout.

Set boundaries

People are so afraid to set boundaries, but boundaries are wonderful! Boundaries help everyone understand where the comfort zone is and where it is not. When you set a boundary, people will either respect it or they won’t. If they don’t, leave the situation as quickly as possible because this person does not and will not respect you. If they do, your boundary worked and you can feel safe and comfortable and respected!

Be open-minded

If you’re unsure about someone after a first date, give them another shot! Some people get really nervous on first dates and it might take them a little bit to calm down and act like a normal human. Also, things you think are deal-breakers aren’t always deal-breakers. You may come around to that country accent or find a soft spot for that Chihuahua.

Own who you are and know your worth

Don’t ever hide parts of who you are to appeal to someone else. If someone isn’t accepting of you as a whole person, they don’t deserve to be in a relationship with you. You are a unique, wonderful human who deserves to be loved fully and there are people out there who will love you fully if you’ll allow them. But you have to show up to be seen. And you have to own every part of yourself (even the messy parts) to be fully loved.

Sometimes it’s hard to talk about the trials and tribulations of dating. It can feel really vulnerable to talk about feeling rejected or not deserving of love. If you need a safe space to process through these feelings, therapy is a great option! If you’re in Kentucky, schedule an appointment with me! If you’re somewhere else, watch this video on how to choose a therapist! 

Why Should I Go To Therapy? Benefits Of Therapy

The Destigmatization of Therapy

It’s a really cool time to be a therapist. People are excited about therapy and not afraid to let others know about it. Instead of therapy being seen as this thing that ‘only crazy people do’, therapy is now this thing that all kinds of people do and find value in. I’m loving it and so appreciative of everyone helping to destigmatize therapy! To those of you who aren’t on board yet, I want to talk about some of the reasons why I personally love therapy and how I find it to be beneficial in my own life (yes, therapists have therapists, too!).

Benefits of Therapy

Therapy offers a space without judgment

Ever wanted to tell someone about the feelings you had after that threesome or your shifting views on religion or those resentments against your parents that have been popping up? It’s hard to know how your mom or significant other or friends might respond to these things, but it’s your therapist’s job to respond without judgment. And with as many stories as they’ve heard in the therapy room, your desires, impulses, and feelings are more than likely not outrageous or crazy or judgment worthy to them like you think they are. 

Therapy makes you feel normal

Therapists have a way of normalizing everything. It’s almost annoying sometimes. Sometimes you want to feel special or bad or wild and your therapist will tell you, “nah girl, I see this all the time.” Therapists are privileged to lots of different stories that the average person isn’t privileged to. They know how normal it is to resent your parents or cheat on your significant other or use illicit substances; they won’t be surprised by your story.
*If you like feeling special, therapy isn’t for you

Therapy gives you space to sort things out with an unbiased observer/facilitator

If you talk to your friends and family about some of the things you talk about in therapy, chances are, they will have an opinion about what you should do or how you should act (and they will make this opinion known). This makes sense because they are directly affected by some of the decisions you make. The great thing about therapists is that they don’t really benefit from trying to sway you in a certain way like those close to you may, so it’s easier for them to have an unbiased opinion on the situation. Also, most therapists will keep their opinions to themselves unless directly asked (and then maybe they’ll share what they think with you *if they think it will be helpful). Sometimes a space to process without interruptions or unsolicited advice is all you need.

Therapy helps you grow in self-awareness

You realize you’ve been perpetuating patterns of thinking and behaving because of beliefs you developed in childhood (or adulthood). You no longer say, “this is just the way I am” because for the first time, you recognize that you have a hand in choosing. You learn that you can believe differently and you can choose differently, which allows you to begin taking action towards change.

Therapy can help you get unstuck or think about things from a different perspective

With the self-awareness you gain in therapy, you begin to think about things differently. You begin to see that the hurt others have caused you came from a place of pain within them. You empathize with others as you recognize that we’re all doing the best we can with the tools we’ve got. You develop compassion for yourself as you acknowledge that you learned your behavior from others who were hurt and in pain. But, you recognize that you don’t have to continue the cycle of hurt. You see the alternatives you have and acknowledge that you have a choice in continuing a harmful pattern that leads to more pain or beginning a new pattern that leads to life.

Therapy is a place you can feel seen and heard

No interruptions. No one-upping. No fighting for space to speak. A place to share your true thoughts, desires, hopes and dreams. To have these things validated and honored. A place to share your deepest pains, fears, and worries. To have these things acknowledged and held. It’s a beautiful space full of wonderful possibility.

Interested in therapy?

I’m constantly overwhelmed by the work my clients do in and out of the therapy room and I’m totally inspired by the freedom, joy, and authenticity they gain through our work together. If you’re interested in seeing how therapy could open you up to new possibilities, schedule a first session with me! If finances are an issue, contact me and I’ll see if we can work something out. There’s no reason to hold off on finding more freedom, joy, and authenticity in life; do it today!

How Does Trauma Affect a Person? Anxiety, Depression, Addiction, Eating Disorders

What Is Trauma?

As part of an initial intake at my old job, I was required to ask new clients if they had undergone any kind of trauma in their lifetime. After doing these intakes over and over again, I realized that people don’t really know what trauma is and they don’t really understand how deeply their trauma has affected them. I believe trauma is at the root of most mental health issues, so today I’ll be talking about what trauma is and how it manifests in our lives post-trauma.  

I’m sure there are tons of working definitions for trauma out there, but for today’s purposes:

Trauma is any kind of event or experience that is significantly physically or emotionally threatening or harmful.

This could include a lot of different experiences, including (but not limited to):

• Birth (both the act of giving birth and the event of being birthed)

• A medical procedure or surgery

• A divorce (for adults or for the children of the adults)

• Loss (of a job, pet, family member or friend)

• Violence (witnessing violence or being violated)

• Miscarriage

• Sexual assault

• Childhood neglect or abuse

• Psychological manipulation or coercion (through cults or religions)

• Being bullied by peers

• Being shamed by authority figures

I could go on and on, but the point is that trauma encompasses so much more than just physical or sexual abuse (which is what we usually focus on). You may not feel your dog’s death counts as a trauma, but if it significantly shook you and caused you to feel negatively about your ability to care for another living being to the point that the thought of having kids now terrifies you because if you can’t take care of a dog you sure as hell can’t take care of a kid… I would consider that a trauma. Just because something might not look like a trauma on the surface, doesn’t mean it’s not a trauma. If an event or experience in the past is causing you to act in defense and out of fear in the present, you may be acting out of a trauma.

What does it look like to be acting out of a trauma?

Anxiety as a manifestation of trauma

Anxiety is a message our body sends us to alert us about a potential threat in our environment. Anxiety says, “PAY ATTENTION, YOUR LIFE MIGHT BE AT STAKE!” When we are exposed to life-threatening situations, our body remembers this. It notes: almost got attacked (or did get attacked) while walking through sketchy neighborhood at night, will remember to avoid similar situations in the future in order to stay alive. Whatever stimuli you were exposed to in your near-death situation can then be determined by your body as potentially threatening. So in turn, that neighborhood, the smells and sounds of the night, the clothing of the attacker, etc. can be stored away in your emotional memory as potentially dangerous and worthy of an anxiety response if encountered again. This is your body trying to protect you from future threats. The problem comes when we’re exposed to life-threatening situations often. I’m sure you can imagine if you have lots of situations like these, your body will begin to believe there is threat everywhere and respond appropriately with anxiety. This may result in feeling anxious when exposed to seemingly benign stimuli such as certain materials of clothing or certain smells. These things may alert us to a real threat, but oftentimes they just happen to be a random part of the trauma scenario you endured that actually isn’t a very good predictor of threat. If it snowed on the day you were nearly shot by a mass shooter, it doesn’t mean that snow is a good predictor of threat, but your body may respond to it in such a way because of the way it is stored in your emotional memory. Enough of these memories and we will begin to see threat (and experience anxiety) everywhere.

Depression as a manifestation of trauma

Depression is also a message from our body and it says, “something’s not right here; something needs to change.” It’s an adaptive message that’s supposed to help us get to a better environment where we can thrive, but sometimes we feel helpless in our ability to do anything but accept our crumby circumstances. When we have been traumatized in any way, we feel powerless. When we have been traumatized repeatedly, this feeling is incredibly exacerbated. If you are constantly being put in situations where you are powerless, you will begin to believe that your power is small or non-existent. You will learn to accept this fact and accept your situation as it is, miserable as it may be. Believing you are powerless to change your situation renders you stuck in your depression until you gain an ounce of strength or belief in your strength to make change.

Disassociation as a manifestation of trauma

Traumatic experiences are obviously not fun, which sometimes causes people to do whatever they can to avoid thinking about them ever again. This can result in disassociation, where people become detached from themselves as a measure of protection. Children who experience chronic trauma often learn to separate from themselves during the trauma as they have no means of escape and this is often the only way they can get through the trauma. They pretend like they’re elsewhere to blunt the effects of the horrible thing they’re going through. They may be able to fully return to the person who was traumatized after the trauma is over and they believe they are safe again, but they also may go back and forth between that person and the person they disassociated to as a way to escape the memories of the trauma and return to the safety of the person who was never traumatized in the first place.

Addiction as a manifestation of trauma

Another way we see people escape the memories of a trauma is through addiction.  Drugs, sex, alcohol, work, exercise, social media, etc. can all act as a method of escape. They help get your mind off the traumatic memories and numb you from the pain temporarily. They are a safe, predictable place of comfort in a world riddled by trauma and chaos. 

Eating Disorders as a manifestation of trauma

For those who are more apt to take action and work towards changing their situation or environment, we may see eating disorders develop. Binge-eating disorder can often be a result of sexual trauma as it is theorized that the individual is unconsciously trying to make themselves less desirable and therefore more protected from another sexual assault. Anorexia and bulimia can develop in individuals who have undergone emotional trauma or bullying in an effort to make themselves smaller (maybe even invisible?) so as to not be a target for further trauma.

We’ve all experienced trauma

Trauma happens to all of us and it affects all of us differently. Your trauma may manifest in big ways or it may manifest in small ways. You may have the resources and strength to deal with your past trauma and find adaptive strategies to thrive or you may just be barely hanging on with the maladaptive coping strategies you’ve developed over the years. Wherever you’re at, I feel you. This world is harsh and none of us get through unscathed. If you’re barely hanging on, find someone to talk to or schedule an appointment with me! Nobody’s meant to go through it alone.

You Don’t Have To Follow Social Norms : The Guide To Breaking All The Rules

Why do we deprive ourselves of things we love?

I was talking to my dad on the phone the other day and asking him what kind of cake he’d like for his birthday. He said, “I’m trying to stay away from sweets right now.” There was one point in my life where I would have nodded my head with understanding but now the statement appalls me and makes me so sad. You’re trying to stay away from something you like? Why!?

What rules do you have for yourself?

What rules have you adopted for society’s sake? A few rules I used to have for myself to keep my body size acceptable for society were 1) work out at least 5 times a week 2) don’t eat gluten 3) restrict sweets. I wasn’t doing these things for health reasons- it was almost entirely for aesthetics. Didn’t work and made me miserable, but that’s a different story for another time.

We all follow rules or norms for the purpose of being acceptable to society

We may not follow these rules consciously with awareness, but we get messages from society about how to act and present ourselves all the time and it’s impossible to rage against the machine and avoid assimilating 100% of the time. So I would ask yourself what rules do you follow for the purpose of being accepted in to our current day society? Maybe your rules have been adopted to fit into your religious community or your work environment or your family unit. Maybe they’re rules you’ve adopted from your parents or picked up from friends. It doesn’t really matter where they’ve come from, but it does matter how they’re serving you. And if they’re not serving you, you need to throw them in the garbage.

How are society’s rules serving you?

If it doesn’t serve you to deprive yourself of sex until marriage, have sex before marriage. If it doesn’t serve you to exercise every day, take time for rest. If it doesn’t serve you to be in a monogamous relationship, look into consensual nonmonogamy. If it doesn’t serve you to spend time with family members that are toxic, cut them out of your life. If it doesn’t serve you to pretend you agree with the beliefs of your friends or coworkers, tell them your own beliefs and see what happens. If something isn’t serving you, you’re going to remain frustrated and miserable until you put an end to it. Accept that people may not accept you if you go against the grain. But with this, recognize that 1) the tribe you want around you will accept you and 2) you will be able to accept yourself more when you start to practice behaviors that serve you. When you aren’t going against the things you believe or hiding who you are and what you feel, you surprisingly feel a lot better about yourself.

What do you value according to the rules you follow?

If you follow rules that require you to 1) do things you don’t like doing or that feel bad to you and/or 2) avoid doing things you like doing or that feel good to you, ask yourself why. Why do you deprive yourself of things you like? Why do you force yourself to do things you don’t like? Obviously because of a value you hold. So why do you value that thing or that opinion or that belief? If your reason for depriving yourself of sweets and delicious food is so that you can try to maintain a certain body weight so that people will find you attractive and want to be with you, what are you saying you value? Shallow relationships? If your love language is touch but you deprive yourself of sex before marriage because a book that you value and a community you cherish recommended it, what does that mean you value? The wisdom of others rather than your own wisdom? If you disagree with the opinions of others but choose to not have discussion around your disagreements out of fear of ruffling feathers, what are you valuing there? Social approval and acceptance?

Rejecting social norms can result in social rejection

Okay, I know it’s not easy to let go of all the rules because it oftentimes does come with the price of social rejection.  I understand the reality of this, which is why I still find myself hanging on to rules that don’t serve me. I think the first step to letting go of these rules is just naming them and calling them out. I would encourage you to make a list of your rules so that you can begin exploring why you follow them. And then experiment with breaking them. 

Rejecting social norms can help you find your tribe

There are tons of amazing humans out there that will accept you for whatever way you want to express yourself or show yourself to the world. Beginning to reject status quo and make your own rules can help you find these people. When we allow ourselves to be free, others are often more attracted to us anyways. And they yearn to find some of that freedom for themselves.

To show you my humanity, here’s a list of rules I’ve been struggling with lately: 

-Avoid speaking your opinion on _______ (race, gender, politics, religion, monogamy) in mixed company so as to avoid being labeled an extreme liberal or crazy feminist

-Don’t discuss the newfound freedom you’ve found since leaving Christianity with anyone remotely Christian so you can avoid being looked at as a sinner that needs to be saved

-Avoid showing tattoos in professional spaces so as not to be seen as unprofessional

-Don’t talk about your thoughts on why masturbation and polyamory should be celebrated in order to avoid people discounting you entirely for your ‘radical ideas’

Start breaking society’s rules and share the freedom with a friend!

Sharing my rules with others often helps me realize that I’m not alone in feeling the way I do and gives me the support and encouragement I need to start breaking my rules. Make your list and share it with a trusted friend. See how they react. If you don’t have a trusted friend, make an appointment with a therapist that provides a judgment free zone for you to process things like this! 

Why Don’t You Take Insurance? I Don’t Want To Diagnose / Pathologize Your Coping Skills

Insurance companies will not pay for your therapy without a diagnosis

I get a lot of questions about why I don’t take insurance and wanted to write this post to help people understand. The short of it is this: I’m not taking insurance because I don’t want to diagnose people with arbitrary ‘disorders’ that will affect the way they view themselves and the way they move forward in life. The long of it?

The term abnormal is arbitrary

We label something abnormal based on the cultural norms and context it’s within. What’s abnormal in one culture, point in time, or context is normal in another. In the context of religion, hearing a voice could be a message from God; outside the church it’s schizophrenia. In a culture where food is scarce, eating uncontrollably when you have the opportunity to do so is seen as a survival skill; when food is plentiful, it could be considered binge-eating disorder. In one point in time, being gay was considered a disorder of pathology. Diagnosing is just a way of categorizing behavior outside the norm as disordered.

We often learn ‘disordered’ behaviors in response to trauma

Most ‘abnormal behavior’ is an adaptation to fucked up shit. It’s a way of coping with brokenness and pain. You may turn to an addiction as a way of escaping painful memories of past abuse. You may disassociate from your body during and after a trauma in order to protect yourself from fully experiencing the trauma. You may experience extreme anxiety as a response to constantly being in situations where your life was at risk or threatened. You may experience crippling depression because you learned in your childhood that nothing you do can get you out of the shitty situation you’re in so you might as well stop trying.

Our bodies try to protect us from further trauma by sending us messages

Anxiety and depression are messages, not disorders. Anxiety is a normal reaction to a fearful situation. Depression is a normal reaction to an upsetting situation. If you are constantly being put in or putting yourself in fearful situations, you will feel more anxiety. If you are constantly being put in or putting yourself in upsetting situations, you will feel more depression. This is not disordered, this is your body sending you a message to get out of that situation!

I want to honor your capacity for survival

If I give you a diagnosis of pathology for the behavior you’re engaging in that’s helped you cope with your trauma or pain, then I don't feel I’m truly honoring your amazing capacity for survival. If I say that your extreme feeling of anxiety or depression are disordered, I feel like I’m discounting the wisdom of your body. Your ‘disordered’ or ‘abnormal’ behavior has come about as a means of survival. I don’t want to pathologize it. If I pathologize your behaviors or bodily sensations, you are likely to pathologize them as well. You’re likely to say that the way you act or feel is wrong or bad, which may make you feel like you are wrong or bad. This will make it hard for you to see the amazing ways these behaviors and/or sensations were trying to serve you. And if you can’t see the amazing capacity you have for survival, you may never address the underlying reasons for why you adapted these survival mechanisms in the first place. You may just stay stuck in thinking you’re wrong or bad for the way you’re getting through life.

Your coping skills are not disordered

I don’t think people are wrong or bad for their survival mechanisms. I don’t want to call coping skills disordered. I don’t want to put you in a box based on an arbitrary diagnosis. Also, insurance is super corrupt and I really just don’t want to be a part of that whole system. So that’s why I don’t take insurance; I hope you understand. There are a lot of wonderful therapists out there who do and I am so thrilled that they are providing people access to care who wouldn’t be able to afford it otherwise. I just know that it doesn’t feel right in my soul to diagnose and I’m determined to conduct my work in a way that feels right in my soul.

Any more questions? Contact me and I’d be more than happy to answer them!

Productivity Anxiety : It’s Okay To Relax

What is your experience in stillness like?

Finish this sentence: If I spend all day not being productive, I’m _______. For me, it’s ‘wasting my time’. For others, it’s ‘a lazy piece of shit’. For some, it’s ‘heaven’. I don’t know what it is for you, but the idea of productivity has been coming up a lot lately, so I wanted to spend some time talking about it.

We need rest to be productive

We live in a very goal-oriented society that runs on busyness and productivity. Nothing inherently wrong with productivity, I think it can make us feel great and move us towards a better life oftentimes. But with anything, moderation is key. When we become obsessive about productivity, that’s when it becomes a problem. We can’t always be productive because we need rest to be productive. We can’t be productive without rest; we need both in tandem. So if you struggle with allowing yourself to rest, let’s reframe rest as an essential part of productivity. Rest is helping you get on your way to being productive.

Think about how productive you are on little sleep… not very productive, right? You’re distracted, you’re exhausted, you’re stretched for resources. But for some reason it seems different when it comes to other restful activities. Allowing ourselves to take a twenty minute stretch break, an hour to walk through the park, ten minutes to practice meditation, or five minutes to play with our dog may seem frivolous or unhelpful towards our goals for productivity, but just like you need sleep to do anything remotely productive, you also need restful things throughout your day to help your brain and body be in the right state to move towards anything productive.

An inability to rest leads to stress, frustration, and anxiety

Otherwise, you’re most likely going to be stressed, frustrated, and anxious as fuck all day trying to go from one ‘productive activity’ to the next without any rest. That’s how I get anyways. I love to-do lists and I think they really help me stay focused/be productive, but sometimes I feel like my life turns into one big productivity checklist and I can’t rest until everything has been checked off the list. I move from one productive task to the next and tell myself I’ll rest or do something fun when I get done with all of it. If I can just finish everything on the list today, I’ll rest tomorrow. But I know the list will never be completed, there will always be more productive things to accomplish, and life is not a checklist. I still stand by to-do lists because otherwise I’d forget everything important that I need to do, but to-do lists don’t need a due date. You’ll get to them when you get to them.

Practicing mindfulness around what we’re doing can lead to restful productivity

To-do lists often feel like ‘have-to-do’ rather than ‘get-to-do’ lists. Imagine reframing: I have to do the laundry, mop the floors, water the garden, grocery shop, and meal prep today to I get to do the laundry, mop the floors, water the garden. grocery shop, and meal prep today. How can you reframe it in your mind but also how can you physically reframe the activity? Reframe these things in your mind by practicing gratitude for the responsibilities and privileges you are afforded (i.e. a house, a garden, the ability to buy and cook food, etc.). Reframe these things physically by making them more fun and restful. It’s hard to enjoy folding laundry or mopping floors when you’re rushing through these activities just trying to get through your checklist. It’s easier to enjoy folding laundry or mopping floors if you’ve got some music jamming in the background and allow yourself to dance around while you clean things up. It’s hard to enjoy watering your garden when you’re focused on all the things you need to get done after you water your garden. It’s easier to enjoy watering your garden when you allow yourself to be immersed in it’s beauty and stop to linger at the new life you see. It’s hard to enjoy grocery shopping and meal prepping when we feel stretched for time to do these things. It’s easier to enjoy grocery shopping and meal prepping when we give ourselves the time we need to do these things.

Productivity anxiety saps our energy, creativity, and spontaneity

Life isn’t a checklist and life doesn’t need to be rushed through. Sure, maybe you save 5 minutes here or there by rushing through folding laundry or hustling through the grocery store. Amazing, maybe you have 15 more minutes at night that you can use to zone out to Netflix with (since you’re clearly too exhausted and stretched to do anything but mind-numb at the end of the day). Making life a to-do list and rushing through this to-do list saps our energy, our creativity, and our spontaneity. It leaves us with nothing at the end of the day except a feeling of mild accomplishment and major exhaustion. Slowing down, reframing our ‘have-to-do’s’ to ‘get-to-do’s’, and allowing room for fun and creativity in our day is essential to quieting our anxious minds. It’s okay to relax. Relaxing is not a waste of time. Relaxing does not make you a lazy piece of shit. It makes you healthy and calm and more fun to be around. Give yourself a break from the productivity anxiety and find ways to add rest to every part of your day.

Struggling with more anxious thoughts than you can handle on your own? Schedule a counseling appointment with me to talk it out!

How To Support A Loved One With An Eating Disorder

Don’t give unsolicited health advice to someone struggling with an eating disorder

I’m sure you have good intentions when you give unsolicited health advice to loved ones, but I’m here to tell you, they don’t want or need this! We all get enough of this from society and the media, so let’s give each other a break. Your unsolicited advice is most likely causing more harm than good. And today I’m going to talk about some of the ways you may unintentionally be harming your loved ones and causing them to perpetuate harmful behavior patterns so that you can avoid doing this in the future. Creating an environment that promotes health can be difficult in our culture and I’m sure you’re wondering where to even start…

Stop making comments about weight/body size

If you make a comment insinuating your loved one need to lose weight, this can obviously cause them to spiral into unhealthy patterns of behavior with eating and exercise, as well as unhealthy patterns of thinking with body shame and eating guilt. But it works the other way, as well. If you make a comment about how great your loved one looks now that they’ve lost weight, that encourages them to continue with whatever patterns of behavior and thinking it took for them to get there. You might not think this is harmful, but you don’t know what’s going on for them. Maybe they lost the weight because they got sick for a couple weeks and couldn’t eat normally. Or they tried out a new fad diet that cut out food groups they enjoy and which isn’t really sustainable long-term for them. Or they started a crazy new workout regimen that causes them to feel tired and sore all the time. Or they developed an eating disorder. The point is, you don’t know what’s going on for them! You don’t know why they lost weight. It could be that they are practicing much unhealthier behavior than what they were practicing before (at their heavier weight) and you making a comment about their weight reinforces the idea that they should continue to practice these unhealthier behavior and thought patterns to try to maintain this new body size.

Stop making comments about appearance in general

We are so much more than our bodies. We focus so much on the way we look, but we are not decorative objects and we were not put on this earth to look pretty! We need to stop objectifying ourselves and others by refraining from comments about appearance. Besides, how much better does it feel to be affirmed for your personality or intelligence?! Compliments about internal qualities that we can cultivate and change are much more meaningful than compliments about external qualities that we don’t have much control over (our appearance and our body size). Our bodies will always be changing and we don’t have a whole lot of control over the ways they change. If we could channel the energy we put towards changing our bodies into energy to change our minds, we could be living much more fulfilling lives. By focusing on the things we don’t have much control over (and don’t matter much), we distract ourselves from focusing on the things we do have control over (and that really matter)! Encourage your loved ones by focusing on and admiring the qualities that truly make them who they are- their strength, resilience, intelligence, kindness, etc. See how different it feels for you. Start giving yourself compliments on your inner qualities and see how that feels. Appreciate your loved one’s body for being the house to the incredible spirit inside. Thank your own body for housing your own incredible spirit. Focus on further cultivating what’s within. You’ll notice it feels a lot better to focus on the things you can change rather than dwelling on the things you cannot.

Stop insinuating that health can be determined by size

To support your loved one and create a better culture for those who struggle with food and their body, educate yourself and investigate your beliefs around health and fat. If you believe that healthy=thin and unhealthy=fat, do a little soul-searching. What’s going on there to make you believe this and where does this belief come from? Has the media or culture manipulated you into believing that you must be thin to be healthy in order to make a profit off you? We live in a world that has told us we are unhealthy if we weigh a certain amount or eat a certain way, but health is far more than what we put into our bodies and weight does not determine health. There are far better health predictors than weight. If you’re not on board with this, read Health at Every Size to change your mind.

Dig in to any other beliefs you have around fat

Do you believe fat=lazy, stupid, gross, or morally inferior? Are you scared that if you’re fat or if you become fat, that would mean you are all of those things? Break down those beliefs, baby! Fat doesn’t mean any of these things! It’s perfectly okay to have fat on your body and fat does not mean that you are lazy or unintelligent or undisciplined. Fat means that your body is doing it’s job and fighting to keep you alive and thriving by taking in as much energy as it can. Fat means you are doing your best to take care of yourself. Maybe your body needs to be a bigger size to feel healthy and safe. Or maybe eating is the best way you know to cope with life. There’s nothing wrong with this, you’re doing the best you can with the tools you’ve got! It’s nobody’s business how you take care of yourself and it’s not your business how other people take care of themselves. We need to stop insinuating that people are inferior if they don’t fit our idea of health or beauty. You don’t insinuate that someone is less than if they aren’t getting adequate sleep or if they’re not addressing their social needs, so why would you judge someone as less than because of the way they address their nutritional needs? We’re all doing the best we can to take care of our bodies the best way we know how. Practice empathy with others (and yourself!) as you recognize that everyone is doing the best they can to address all their bodies’ needs.

Stop making comments about the food your loved one is putting into their body

Their body, their choice. People are so much more than their food choices, so please stop doing this. If they’re eating foods that don’t nourish them physically or mentally, they’re already feeling it, so no need to add to this. If they’re eating foods that nourish their bodies physically and mentally, wonderful! Either way, you shouldn’t have anything to say about it.

Stop commenting on the amount of movement they’re getting in their day

Same thing with the amount of movement your loved one is getting in their day. Our bodies want to move, but not when movement is a punishment for our food choices or a chore we have to do to maintain a certain body size. Help your loved one connect with joyful movement and find ways they like to move their body; don’t encourage exercise that feels like a punishment or a chore. We need a healthy relationship with movement and we’ll never get this when we associate it with weight management.

Improve your own body image

Lastly, stop degrading and hating on bodies (others and your own)! When you fully accept your own body, you stop criticizing or wanting to change others bodies as well. Your body is wonderful and allows you to have fantastic experiences throughout this world. It doesn’t need to be a certain size to have wonderful experiences and there’s no need to struggle against it because of the way it looks on the outside. The more we hate on our own bodies and others’ bodies, the more distracted we are from the things that really matter in our lives. Accept that bodies are diverse and are not meant to look the same. Accept the body you’ve been given and live happily in that body because it’s the only one you’ve got and it’s doing it’s best to keep you alive and thriving!

If you have further questions about how to best support a loved one with an eating disorder or would like to schedule a therapy appointment with me to process through any of this, contact me!

What Causes Anger and How To Control It : An Alternative Approach To Anger Management

What causes anger? And what does it mean that anger is a secondary emotion?

When you’re angry, it just feels like anger to you. Sometimes it’s hard to notice anything underneath your anger unless you really dig in to your emotions, but anger is an emotion we often resort to secondarily when we’re trying to protect ourselves from feeling a more vulnerable primary emotion such as sadness, fear, or pain. In The Mastery of Love by Don Miguel Ruiz, anger is described as a mask for fear. Anger is fear that: we (or those we love) won’t get what we need, are not safe and secure, are not loved, valued, or respected, and/or will not be included. Anger has a lot to do with expectation. We expect others to treat us and our loved ones fairly, with dignity, and with kindness. When these things don’t happen, we often react in anger because we have been hurt. Anger is an emotional response to an unfulfilled expectation. We want to resist our feelings of pain and we do this by feeling anger instead. Anger is a natural emotion that we can’t avoid, but it doesn’t have to be negative.

Anger can be healthy if it’s in the present.

It’s natural and healthy to respond to an injustice with anger. It’s also natural and healthy to let this anger motivate us to make some kind of change in our lives or in the world. If we can change the situations that are causing us to be angry, we must. If we can’t change the situations, we must change ourselves. It isn’t natural and healthy to allow anger to persist past the present. When we suppress feelings of anger, they often come back up in the future. Dwelling on past hurt and becoming angry about it does us no good, which is why we must lean in to our anger when we experience it so that it doesn’t come back up.

How do we lean in to our anger?

First, we must identify what’s triggering our anger. Easy enough, your spouse made a backhanded comment to you, your boss didn’t give you the raise you were promised, your pharmacy won’t give you the prescription you need. Of course you’re angry about this. The next question is a little harder and will require you to dig a little deeper. Why are you angry? What’s underneath it? Your spouse making a backhanded comment makes you feel hurt and/or afraid that they don’t love you anymore. Your boss not giving you a raise makes you fear that you aren’t valued and respected at work. Your pharmacy not giving you the prescription you need makes you fear that you won’t get what you need to function. It can be difficult to identify what’s underneath your anger, but if you look deep enough, there’s always something there.

Alternative Anger Management : Reality Checking

Now that you’ve identified the other emotions accompanying your anger, it’s important to acknowledge these emotions. Acknowledge the fear or pain you are experiencing and acknowledge how you feel threatened. These feelings are normal! It would be abnormal if you didn’t experience fear in response to being threatened. Acknowledge that your feelings of fear are normal, but then you must take a closer look at these fears. You must ask yourself if your fears are legitimate. Does your spouse really not love you anymore or were they just having a bad day and decide to take their frustration out on you? Does your boss really not value you or have they simply forgotten about your raise because of their busy schedule? Does your pharmacist really want you to suffer or have you failed to get the proper prescription approvals needed for your medicine? When we can reflect in this way and practice awareness around our anger, we are much more likely to think rationally about our anger. If we can think more rationally about our anger, we can respond to our anger more rationally, as well.

Anger is an emotional response to an unfulfilled expectation

Gabor Maté, a physician who specializes in addiction and who I will most definitely talk more about in a future post, says you should “be at least as interested in your reactions as in the person or situation that triggers them.” If we can dig in and explore why we respond with anger to certain people and situations, we can learn a lot about ourselves. When angry, ask yourself what expectation of yours went unmet. You expected your spouse to be kind, your hard work to be recognized by your boss, or for things to go your way at the pharmacy. What expectations do you have for the people around you and the situations you find yourself in?

We know that life isn’t fair and things don’t always go our way, but we still get angry when we feel we haven’t been treated fairly or things haven’t gone our way. So, are our expectations realistic? Can we really expect for people to treat us kindly, fairly, and with respect all the time? Regardless of your answer to this question, it doesn’t change the fact that people won’t always treat you with kindness, fairness, and respect. There will be times where you’re treated unfairly or without respect, so what are you going to do about it? You can choose to get angry and dwell on this anger for an indefinite amount of time OR you can choose to acknowledge the way you feel threatened, ask yourself if your fears are legitimate, and release your expectations for others.

Alternative Anger Management : The Hypothesis of Generosity

Brené Brown talks about the hypothesis of generosity in her book Rising Strong and this hypothesis has significantly changed the way I respond to frustration and anger. With the hypothesis of generosity, you ask yourself: what’s the most generous assumption I can make about this person’s intentions or what they said or did to me? You are much less likely to be angry about the person who cut you off in traffic if you assume they are speeding to the hospital with their pregnant about-to-deliver wife. You are much less likely to be angry about the person who made a rude comment to you at the grocery if you assume they are going through it because they just lost someone they love. You are much less likely to be angry about your friend cancelling plans last-minute if you assume they have overstretched themselves and are making this decision to preserve their mental health because they just have way too much going on. If we can release our unrealistic expectations for others and accept a hypothesis of generosity, we can live much happier lives.

Alternative Anger Management : Choosing to live on the track of love

Don Miguel Ruiz sums all this up in his book The Mastery of Love as he explains how we choose to live our lives either on a track of fear (and scarcity) or a track of love (and abundance)…

“Love has no expectations. Fear is full of expectations. With fear we do things because we expect that we have to and we expect that others are going to do the same. That is why fear hurts and love doesn’t hurt. We expect something and if it doesn’t happen, we feel hurt- it isn’t fair. We blame others for not fulfilling our expectations. When we love, we don’t have expectations; we do it because we want to, and if other people do it or not, it’s because they want to or not and it’s nothing personal.”

The world could be a much better place if we all decided to choose love over fear.

Alternative Anger Management Worksheet (Feel free to share this resource!)

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